I'm sitting here
In a crowded room
Trying to figure it all out
Everything messed up
And I just don't know anymore
I don't know how to fix it
Everything I do is wrong
And everything I say
Well let's just say
Nothing I do is right it's all coming down
And there's no way to fix it
Noway to make it right
Nothing can fix what I have done
The hurt has been done
And will never be taken back
Never in a life time
I climbed higher and higher
Just to fall again
I go higher to come down harder
The world's spinning around me
And I'm just stuck in exact and spot
Unable to speak
Unable to move
Unable to cope with it all
The world's just going
And without warning
I'm down again,
Not able to get back up
I'm strong here
In a crowded room
Why should I be worried? That I’m alone
That I don’t have crowd around me…The crowd of friends and families who are attached with loose string of relationship. The strings which are so weak that I can see the notches tied up as far as I can see in past. The notches are evidence of broken trust, hurts ego, misunderstanding and unfulfilled expectations.
I have a question to the all readers,
PEOPLE SEE A LONELY ALONE PERSON, BUT OTHERS AREN’T ALONE TOO EVEN WITH CROWD?
We all are busy with our social and professional circles throughout our life… Like an endless running game!
But the moment we fall after being hit by a problem disguised as a big tree in a think jungle or a big rock in the middle of high tide river. We collapse and when we wake up …..We could find that no one stopped me!
They could pass by you looking through there merciful eyes thinking of our poor state… Talk about you during a morning tea or evening snack and then again start the same race again with the same crowd.
Do you still think you are not alone?
You might see me as a lonely person.
"coz I can't pray like the crowd
Nor can I spit on the cloud
Neither Do I dream about my fairytales
And I don't cry for my sorry sails
Coz I don't dream of becoming rich
Nor do I scream of being sick
Neither do I preach about my charities
And I don't speak about my fantasies
Coz I don't stop from shiny bright
Nor do I stand when the light is bright"
But I’m happy…..coz I’m not alone…Atleast not as alone as those who are still with crowd.
Because they think they have all the happiness in this world.
They don’t want to accept you. ….
They run from you
They run from thier destiny and In the end they end up being restless and lonely.
IF YOU CAN UNDERSTAND MY SILENCE YOU CAN UNDERSTAND MY LIFE TOO! 💜
Thank you all for reading.
Love NOORIEN MISBHA ❤🥀